My mom always says that you achieve greatest personal growth outside of your comfort zone.
I expect I should be growing quite a bit then.
Today was a huge day for me as a knitter.
I stared at the diagrams and read the text over and over until I understood the weaving stitch (which I gather is the same as mattress stitch?).
I did everything she told me to: I pressed the pieces, I worked on a flat surface, I carefully pinned it together…
And it worked!!!
I finally, properly LEARNED HOW TO SEAM!
My seams are nowhere near perfect, but they’re also not the glaringly awful results I got with my previous haphazard stabby sutures technique. As in, I would wear these sleeves in public.
I have only a few more days to finish this sweater for the knitalong, but I am just thrilled to have overcome what has thus far been my greatest knitting obstacle!
I finished knitting my grandmother’s Sun Ray Shawl!
It is blocking this very moment, and I will have it dry and packaged to come with me to Hawaii on Monday.
I thought the picot bind-off would kill me, but I did it. This is the largest project I’ve ever undertaken, and I can’t wait to see how it turns out after blocking.
I was foolish in choosing the Tilted Duster for NaKniSweMo, considering it cannot be even halfway completed until I do major amounts of seaming. I chose it knowing this, hoping this would be the sweater that broke me of my seam phobia, and yet, I remain paralyzed.
I’ve knit the back, both fronts, and both sleeves, and now I am at the point where I just cannot avoid sewing. I tried one seam with embroidery floss, which worked out better than any seam I’ve ever made… but it was only a few inches long and I’m still terrified of the rest.
The trouble is, this is a pattern with me. I get caught up on some small detail and let it hold a project up indefinitely. To wit:
Things I Am Avoiding Like the Plague:
For good measure, I’m also wearing my winter coat open because I am avoiding sewing two buttons back on it.
I realize that if I committed just an hour or two to finishing, I could have quite a few FO’s and a functional winter coat. Yet here I am obsessing over hats. And socks.
Must sew. No matter what, I must get over my fear of sewing.
I haven’t knit in almost a week, and that’s making me a bit sad. I am at a crazy busy point in the semester, and I had house guests this weekend, a paper to write, an all-day bronze casting demonstration, and so on.
Finally I feel I am able to pick the needles back up (although admittedly, I have homework I should be doing), but I have almost no desire to work on the Tilted Duster.
I can’t really say why this should be. Maybe I don’t like knitting in pieces, and I’m severely dreading seaming (though I did get a copy of The Knitter’s Book of Finishing Techniques by Nancie Wiseman, which should make it better). Maybe it’s the feel of the yarn on straight needles, maybe it’s the pattern itself.
I just don’t like doing it, and I realize that this is why I have so many UFOs. It will be a really good exercise in discipline if I am able to force myself through this sweater for NaKniSweMo, though it is incredibly challenging to keep from casting on for something new instead (my typical behavior).
Also, sorry no photos, but right now it’s just a few boring brown pieces, and I can’t even get inspired to pin them out to show. I hope I will have more exciting progress to share soon!